Tired of my emotions being sucked up dry
Thoughts of failure run through my head
A slave to this feeling called anger that I dread.
Wishing I could just pretend that I'm OK
but this grip is set a little too tight revealing grey.
A faceless demon in command to torture
my mind within grasp of his foolish nurture.
Make this time be true
Let it be real I hope you get the clue
without the touch of evil my life is tuned
It won't come back and it won't intrude
Wont let it break, the string that's tied
I trust my own feelings, with nothing to hide
No more am I empty, you fill me with charm
allowing myself to commit, if not mutual, I wont be harmed
Don't be fooled, you are my ambition
something as quick as this, so exact, please listen..
Triggered by your smile, opens everything inside
when I'm down, you pull me up and make me feel alive.

We all want to be i know because i have a dream too my dream is to die. I know I'm young and haven't experienced the "true pain of having kids and not being able to pay for their needs". I just want to get rid of all the worries all the annoying people and all the bullshit. I want to die slowly and suffer for the ignorant people the way god did. I have no place on this earth anyway. No I'm not emo Yes i am crazy but its just my state of mind. No one knows what goes on in my head. The day people are able to read minds is the day that violence and war will break out simply because most people cannot handle the truth...

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I hate the ones that enjoy life because i can't. I hate the ones who are happy because i am always down. I hate the ones that have many friends because i only have myself. To me life is shit i have bad luck all the time and i don't know why. I get stitches one day and a broken thumb the next it like its all planned out with horrible events. Im not a bad kid i don't do drugs i don't make fun of people and i don't curse a lot. I guess fortune hates me because i always have bad luck in me. It sounds like I'm just complaining about my life i know it does. But I'm not this whole thing has a meaning and so does my bad luck, And yes I'm just a kid I'm only 12...

My 1TB bit it not that long ago and I purchased a new one, this time by Seagate. (Go USN supported shit!) I'm trying to get what I can off of the old one so I don't have to start completely from scratch on several projects.

Also, it's been a year since I signed up for my Navy Federal Credit Union bank account and they JUST NOW emailed me my welcome letter... Wtf. Slow much?

PS. Anyone know how to get into a Winrar that has a password on it? I have several of them that, er, have very private things stashed away in them but I can't recall what password I have used. I've tried all the ones I can remember or found written down. Something isn't working.