I'm still reeling over the news but as is my marital status: I'm divorced. I found out two days ago that my ex-husband (who's 30) and his 'fiance' (who started out 15, now 17) were in a motorcycle wreck. He was wasted (no surprise) and she wasn't wearing a helmet (again, no surprise). She was pronounced dead at the scene and he was arrested for driving on a revoked (.. no surprise there AT ALL), fleeing the scene, DWI, statutory rape and... get this.. VEHICULAR MANSLAUGHTER.

I dislike that someone died (even though I didn't approve of her or how wild her mother let her run) but he got what has been coming to him.

My mouth fell open when my EMT friend told me.

Damn. Glad I was smart enough to get out of there when he first went crazy and showed signs of drug addiction.

Let this be a lesson to you kids. Drugs are bad. Srsly.

Imvu chat of utter lies,
Words of flames,
Emotions of ash.
Lead me, someone, out of this Fake World of Imvu.

I have wandered forever,
Carrying a couple of damp words,
Stumbling across steam-blinded tracks,
Feet slashed by
Rusted vessels, broken tiles, half-cooked meals,
Tattered clothes, roofless screams, broken bones,
Stooped bodies that turn to stone when you touch them.

I roam every day
Like a ghost from some stammering past
Or some endlessly hungry, never appeased
Unknown evil deity
Blind to himself,
A lost sun
Or death.
From these woods
Of ulcerous, oozing, burning, cracked mirrors
Someone
Lead me, out of this Fake World of Imvu.

I had a wonderful day. I got to spend almost an hour with my beloved. It was the purest form of joy I have experienced. After all these months, we could be finally together. There is a lot of longing, and I hope that we may see each other again even though we live so far away from each other. I always cherish the time we get to spend online and I hope we get to spend so much more time in person.

Just something I've always been thinking about. How some people in the world can say they love someone and yet cheat on them. I have always believed that if you truly love someone then you'd keep yourself for them and only them. I've had friends that have cheated and they always use the classic "they're never around" "they cheated on me first" and "they're not ready yet" excuses. How are they valid excuses? If they're never around, then tell them you want to spend more time with them. If they cheated on you, then break up with them. If they don't want it yet then wait until they are and then it will be so much better. I don't know, I've never cheated before and I never plan to. Just something that was in my head.

I was afraid at times that I would end up alone. I was scared of having no-one there for me when I am old and frail. Those thoughts don't bother me anymore. I have accepted that it might very well be, and I would just be alone.I met with a friend today; a friend from school, and we hadn't spoken in a very long time. He is unhappy and lonely and he requires company. He has lost hope that he will find a person who is perfect for him, and he is grasping at straws it seems, trying hard to stay afloat. He wants a companion and he asked me to live with him. I talked him out of it because I believe that he will find the perfect person. It doesn't always seem optimistic but I don't want him to lose hope.