Still need a little bit more help with the only 2 things that I want from here. Any donations would be greatly appreciated and thank you so much to the ones that have helped me so far.

Your eyes pierce through me, dark and sleek
But, to no avail, I know not what they seek
Your touch burns my core from deep within
And I flush, like I’ve committed a mortal sin

You caress my very thoughts and dreams
In you, I am mesmerized and in awe it seems
You tightly grip a hold of my every sense
Stroking my emotions and crumbling my defense

Your words rev up my wearied soul
Causing my mind to spin out of control
My lips part, though I can’t speak a word
I stand frozen as my memories become blurred

I close my eyes and drift under your spell
Filled with delight but I dare not tell
Your very essence pushes me into overdrive
My desires build as you make me feel alive

Then suddenly things darken and my heart gets tight
I throw open my eyes but you’re nowhere in sight
All of my elated feelings begin to come crashing down
One by one they surround me without making a sound

As I reach my hand to my lips, a smile emerges
I feel your grip on me tighten as the battle surges
You remain withi...

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I am sad and angry. Sad because I don't think things will ever change. Angry because I feel powerless and can't do anything to change it. I have been living everyday in a toxic mess for more than a decade now. But anger will not help, nor will sadness. I will use them though to make my will iron-strong. I will not give up and I will protect my roots, my home and the place I inhabit. I will not be trampled or overthrown. I will fight. I must fight. There is no way out of this.

I have a really old PC and i have Windows 7 on it. It keeps rebooting automatically at times and I dunno what to do. I don't have sufficient RAM probably, and also I think i should format the C drive and then reload Windows again. Any advice will be appreciated.